Boulevard of lost dreams

i don't know what m i seeking,
is it love or is it pain,
the tears that fall over my cheeks,
or the smile that should come again...

holding ur hands,
is my dream,
bt my mind is refrained,
for no reason, i am probably insane...

cacophony in my ears,
i want ur words,
to turn it into music...

may be i m now expecting,
asking for longing,
i wanna make love...

come here, hold me,
hug me, cuddle me,
i am asking nothing but just ....

LOVE ME..

Idiosyncrasy

Glare in my eyes

Hope in my thoughts

Moments to live

After a long pause...

Was myself

Poured my heart,

Again it was shattered

I was torn apart...

Tears inside

Didn't let them come outside

Eruption was predicted

Kept my feelings aside...

Felt like a sponge

Absorbing things around

Until someone squeezes

And i vomit it all out...

Darkness still there

Hope's no where

High on spirit

A VICIOUS SLIT...

Spastic effect

Stoicism at its best

Blood splattered

Asphyxiating affect...

"Snowfall"

I clicked it :)

[I used to download such pics when i was in the 1st yr of my grad for my desktop wallpaper, and now i have clicked few of such kinds :)]

Reaching towards the end of my stay in Finland and i was just wondering whether or not would i be able to see the snowfall. I was told by my colleague that it probably 'would' snow this weekend, and it really did. I really wanted to see the snowfall before going back to india. And it was just so beautiful. I must say, it was nature at its best and one of the most beautiful, incredible and unforgettable moments of my life. "Precipitation in the form of crystalline water ice", it was just so amazing to feel it early in the morning..

It was just like you see in the movies, i had always wanted to feel the same. Feels as if you're in heaven. This was the first snowfall in Pori, Finland (place where i live now). I had been out partying with my friends and we all just could not believe it. How a few months ago, we had been cribbing to our managers for sending us onsite, and here we were.... Snowfall, friends and that too in finland. And trust me, it is another feeling when you feel the nature's beauty while you are sloshed :)

water water every where,

in the form of ice...

but this wasn't that hard,

it was soft, smooth and nice...

nature at its best,
everthing seems to be white...
i went out to feel how it is
and realized this is called ...

"PARADISE"

I was told that this snow won't really stay on ground, rather would met as soon as it will touch the ground... But unlike, i can still see the roofs, cars, trees around me covered with snow. My trip to finland, i suppose have been during the best times of the year. May-june: where i saw what summers meant to them. Gals wearing short, shorter and shortest of clothes; where i used to still feel cold (thanks to the chilled wind which used to blow my head off). I used to lie down on the beach, sun-bathing, watching sexy hot babes playing beach volleyball. And now winters (sept-oct-nov, though this is the start)

This weekend also was the "All Saint's day" .People dressed in the most scary and weird dresses. I did some google for the historical facts as i wasn't sure about why it's celebrated, and found this:

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"All Saints' Day, All Hallows, Hallowmas ("hallows" meaning "saints" and "mas" meaning "Mass"), is a feast celebrated on November 1 or on the first Sunday after Pentecost in honour of all the saints, known and unknown. Halloween is the day preceding it, and is so named because it is "The Eve of All Hallows". All Saints is also a Catholic formula invoking all the faithful saints and martyrs, known or unknown. In terms of Catholic theology, the feast remembers all those who have attained the beatific vision in heaven, while the next day, All Souls' Day, commemorates the departed faithful who have not yet been purified and reached heaven."

[From Wiki]

Click here for more info on Saint's day

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Since it was snowing, no one was out on the streets, but i could see people in their attire in the disc. It was fun and it's been fun partying here in finland. Click here for info on Halloween's day.

Check this for technical info on snowfall and a few pictures here

I at times think why can't we also celebrate such days in india. When we celebrate diwali, holi, navrathras etc etc etc, then why not days like these. Diwali is celebrated in UK, US, Canada, then why can't indians celebrate "All Saint's day" "Halloween day" .... but then i realized that i am probably asking for too much. It just can't happen. It requires a change in the perspective of millions of people. IT JUST CAN'T.

Better to be urself

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I knew i was dying - 2

I knew I was dying...

I heard some voices
I opened my eyes

Was lying on the bed, I had survived
There were people around me
Whom I had helped someday
And I was happy again
To see them today

Suddenly I heard those voices
They told me to be loving and kind again
They kissed my head and blessed me
And whispered that I would have to soon fly again...

They whispered encouragingly...

“You would always feel the pain
You probably might not see the gain
Believe in yourself
You don’t need any help to fly again

There can't be anyone like you
‘COZ
Miracles do not happen ever and ever again

People won't understand you, they probably won't love you
But you have to still be THE ONE for them when they need you

Being amicable is what defines you
Love is all what you have
You are incorrigible when it comes to helping others
Yes that’s you...

Let people think it’s a preposterous act”

The dark clouds of self-doubts vanished,
And I thought...

THERE ARE TIMES WHEN PEOPLE GIVE ME PAIN
THERE ARE TIMES,
WHEN I MAKE THEM SMILE
MAY BE FOR FEW MOMENTS...

THEIR SMILE IS MY GAIN
AND WILL ALWAYS BE MY GAIN
I WILL HELP TILL I CAN, AND I’LL FLY HIGH AGAIN

:)

P.S. : This time it ends on a positive note :) , hope that i've kept the creative side going.. would wait for the comments.... For those who missed the part -1 Read Here

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I knew i was dying

Was all alone standing on that bridge
When I thought I’ll jump off the edge

There was a time when my life was fun...
I used to shine, just like the sun
There was a time when I felt I’ve stepped on mars...
I used to twinkle, just like the stars

It all started off in my school
When I was nothing but a fool
Then the angels started thinking
How to help me, so that I could start winning

They came in my dreams, and did some thing
And very soon I started flying.
There were obstacles all through my way,
BT I steered along well to reach the bay.

They had told me to be loving and kind
I had not forgotten, it was always in my mind
I tried my best to help all,
Even if at times my ego had to fall.

At times I used to think about my gain
Then I realized that few of them were loving
And few were giving me nothing, but the pain...

I had spent my years loving
But now I felt as if I was dying.
Not that someone had hurt me,
Not that I wasn't flying.

I just felt lonely at times...

I jumped off the bridge
I was flying
I was dying

THEN

The angels came again,
This time not to do some magic
Not to take away my pain

They held my hands,
Told me close my eyes
I felt like a "burning ice"

It was all dark,
Just a bright light towards the end
I was flying, but towards my end

I again wanted my angel to be around
But there was no one I could find...
Closed my eyes again...
I knew I was dying...

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P.S.: Wait for the sequel to release next Friday :) Hope i this is one's good as well. Comments are open ;)

FRIENDS

I was living a smiling life
My love was pure
The feelings were many
But she wasn't sure
She just left me, thinking of me no more

“SHE WAS THE ONE FOR ME AND SHE WAS MY LIFE...”

Now it's like a dark pathway I follow
No thoughts in my mind, no dreams
Sleepless nights, thought less days
I am dead it seems

I used to see you sleeping
I used to see you crying
I used to see you smiling
I used to see you flying
You were my dreams, you were my shine
But now everything seems to be so hollow
With you not around...
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I used to be a dreamer
Then I realized my dreams were you

I used to be a singer
Then I realized, my music was you

I had given myself to you
I thought you’ll give me too
But then you made me realize
Life is not as beautiful as morning dew


THEN...

As usual angels came, they shook me up, and they told me again
Life is not to give up, but to stand up and run again

People come and go, no one stays forever so
They love, they hate
They just put your life at stake

You have a fight; you have a battle to win
You have many more people, who love you still
A person can't change your life
A person can't make you die

YOU ARE A FIGHTER, YOU ARE A DREAMER
You are not only special,
You are RARE

I stood up again
I realized I am insane
I still have lots to give
I still have lots to gain

I still thank those angels
And pray they be with me forever

They always give me their helping hands
“Thanking those angels”
They were none other than,
My lovely
"FRIENDS"
:)

Reflections

conflicting thoughts , confused mind
didn't know what I had to find

a tussle between the heart and head
the road was indeed long ahead

asked for advice or a solution
did not less the complication

went there , here, everywhere
I found it nowhere

my heart , mind and body in different directions
but peace I found in my own reflection.....

It's true atleast for me, but then at times the mirror also tends to go against me :).. seems that it has a few grudhes against me... ;)...

It didn't took much time writing this poem, don't know early in the morning in what mood i am in, or where my thots are flying....

but hope i'll soon, be able to reflection in some1 else as welll....

The Right Moment

Take a look again
Why not? But when??

Stop to listen
Why not? But why??

Take a moment and think
Why not? But what??

Let your heart guide you
Why not? But where??

Do something different
Why not? But how??


To see where one is goingTo listen to someoneTo reflect on actions and deedsTo feel and live what one truly believes inTo do something that one really wishes toWhat stops us from all this……

“The right moment”

What is the “right moment” but the call of one's heart….
Time is nothing but how much you think has gone by and how much it will be till you can live your dreams……


Rohit Jain

Temptation

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Temptation ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~


I am tempted by the sun
I too wish to light the “SKY“

The surge of my thoughts
I am tempted to be the “RIVER“

I am tempted by the birds
I too wish to sing the song of my “HEART“

The strength of my conviction
I am tempted to be the “MOUNTAIN“

I am tempted by this life
I too wish to be the “CREATOR”


There is destiny but destiny doesn't push you where you don't want to go. You are the one to choose. It’s all in your hands. God wrote 50% of the destiny and the remaining is decided by our own actions…
No matter how qualified or deserving we are, no matter how much we want to have a good and happy life, we will never have it until we allow ourselves to have it...
How hard it is to make the right choices and how important it is to stick to the best we know...and that we really do know what the best is!!! A tiny change today brings us to a drastically different tomorrow. There are grand rewards for those who pick the high roads, but those rewards are hidden by years. Every choice is made in the uncaring blind, no guarantees from the world around us...

But there is one thing which can keep you successful and happy:

Keep hoping and keep smiling…

…Because whatever happens

… Happens for good

"There’s no such thing called talent, what they call talent is nothing but the capacity for doing continuous hard work - in the right way." - Winslow Homer.

~~~Nothing But Love~~~

NOTHING BUT LOVE


~ ~ ~ ~ Just when all my feelings were out in the cold ~ ~ ~ ~
Just when... i was told,
Life does not offer any showers of happiness,
Life gives only distress....

~ ~ ~ ~ Just when nothing seemed right ~ ~ ~ ~
A dark pathway, not even candle light...
Just when all my hopes were slowly dying,
I had given up.... not even trying.

~ ~ ~ ~ Just when i walked away, ~ ~ ~ ~
Hoping to cross none in the way,
You came and stood by my side,
You barred all…. nothing to hide….

~ ~ ~ ~ You held my hand and i smiled ~ ~ ~ ~
Nothing to say, nothing to decide…
Left everything to the almighty up above,
I have nothing else to offer but LOVE

THoUghTs

“The thoughts are like that wind, one tries to predict, but still it’s unpredictable. The scope of thoughts is vast like an ocean, the speed of thinking is faster than the speed of light, they are like water ready to take the shape of any object poured in.”